Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Circumstances

In life, in my life, circumstances are always changing. Shortly after my Lovin' Man and I were married I became very ill with a virus called CMV. It made me weak and very tired, exhausted actually, to the point that I had to go on disability and eventually quit my job. Over time, with rest and a weird diet, I got better and rather than re-enter the work force we decided to try and have a baby.

Our sweet first born baby boy came shortly after and if you have kids, you know that they flip your world upside down. The first year was rough but soon we found our stride and I thought we would coast down Easy Street for a while. And we did... for a while. Shortly after his first birthday we found out that baby number 2 was on the way. Our second bundle of joy arrived without incident but when he was 4 months old he was hospitalized with a serious case of RSV. He spent a week in the hospital, it was an agonizing time. But, he got much better and soon began to thrive.

Then, we decided to move to a bigger home. It seemed like a good idea at the time anyway. Our sweet little girl came along shortly after and we soon found ourselves with 3 kids, all under the age of 3. That first year after she was born was a swirl of ups and downs, highs and lows, and general growing pains. But, again, we found our stride and moved along from day to day with little incident. Kids started school, lost a few teeth (gross!), friendships grew, and life in general progressed.

Then we decided it was once again time to move to a larger home. It seemed like a good idea at the time. We moved to our current house, feeling comfortable with our decision until "the bubble" burst. You know the one, the big housing bust that sent the economy in to a tail spin now known as The Great Recession. Our particular area was hit hard. We also found out we were pregnant.

Unexpectedly.

With twins.

Yeah, soak that in.

So, while I was freaking out a bit I decided to take things one day at a time.
God has a plan for us, right?

There is something somewhere about closed doors leading to open windows, right?

My new mantra became "Bloom where you're planted" and I have tried to adhere to it every day. Over the last few years we have gone from a family of 5, to a family of 7, and I wouldn't have it any other way. We have gone from a comfortable income, to a nearly non existent income, and survived and evolved. And soon, we will go from a roomy 4 bedroom home with a yard, to a small 3 bedroom apartment, and we will thrive.

 I know that God does not give us anything we cannot handle... I have had twins and lived, I know I can survive anything! I know I have not handled every situation with grace or elegance but when I have lost my way I have tried to learn from every lesson. You have to... if you don't learn, God gives you another opportunity... and another, and another, and another until you get it right. I know there are many bible verses about prayer, perseverance and overcoming hurdles but the one verse that helps me hold my head high and tells me in my heart of hearts that everything will be alright is this:

2 Timothy 1:7
For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self discipline.

In all of life's circumstances, as ever changing as they are, I can bloom because God has given me the power, love and self discipline that I need to thrive.

3 comments:

  1. I have always been amazed by your attitude of perserverance with a smile. We have very similar circumstances, you and I, and I try to hold myself to your standard every day. I know your family will always thrive no matter what, because they have you at their heart!

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  2. I've learned so much from you by reading your blog. I remember when I first started reading your blog, you said that you and the kids had had a rough start to the day so you decided to do a "do over". And I thought, well that's just genius! Of course God allows us a do over. His mercies are new every morning. So I can have a do over with my little family too on days where we just seem to get off on the wrong foot. Since then, I've picked up so many other wonderful ideas from you. Anyway, I just wanted to say that I'm excited for the new adventures that await your family and I can't wait to see your strength and grace shining through in what's to come! I know you'll bloom beautifully wherever God plants you.

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  3. this is so great. i can't imagine going through all of that in such a short time. you are amazing!

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